surprising

Today， I found the feeling I’ve lost for ages. Well， I didn’t expect I could do that at all.
Anyway， why didn’t I remember that? Because I tried to forget it by myself. I might’ve thought it just made my life more complicated. In a way， that’s true.
But in fact， I’ve felt like getting lost lately.
Actually， I cannot forget it， after all.
I mean that’s what I want. I really need it.
How can I forget it?
But anyway， I remember it again.
I’m going with it from now on. I cannot distract myself from it.